Who am I? Where do I begin.

Born in August 1985 makes me a Leo star sign which means apparently I am... 

"Leos are said to be loyal, confident, and hard-working, and are often natural leaders. They are also known for being passionate, dramatic, and enjoying being the center of attention. 

That sounds really great. To be a natural leader, passionate and hard working. I wish I was, it sounds amazing. I don't naturally gravitate towards the light, I tend to hide away. Scared to give my opinion, but times when I was in the lime light I loved it. I remember my days doing toastmaster speeches, participating in competitions. I loved it. The little bit of a leadership position I had in China was wonderful, I enjoy having people come to me for help. I love being in an assisting role. I want to be a leader that walks next to my employees not in front of them. We are a team, we work together. I love having a supportive role.

Sometimes I wonder if going back into teaching is what I want to do. My biggest concern is the christianization of all the schools. Second is the limited salary, third is the stress. Now I am back to the drawing board. Still trying to re-invent myself. It would have been easy if Corne could go back to the fresh produce market. Work for a stable salary, I would get a job at a school. Get a salary. But things are just not working out that way. 

In the meanwhile I also fell pregnant. 11 weeks already with a due date end of July, I can't see how I am going to get a job now. To be honest, I don't want a job. I want to be driven enough to do my own thing. Either in a supportive role to help Corne start something. Or just do something I am passionate about. But what am I passionate about?